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Apr. 3rd, 2013

the beauty of fiction

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I'm so socially awkward. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I seemed so serious, my tone sounded serious though I didn't mean it as an insult, and my expression looked serious.

He asked where she went. No one else answered him, so I did. "She went to see your cca teacher, you slacker."
Perhaps its the way I phrased it. Perhaps it the way I said it - slightly louder than I normally talk because the canteen was noisy. Perhaps it's because he's sensitive to the word 'slacker'. Perhaps it's because I've teased him too many times about him skipping cca and she having to work so hard. Or maybe it's cos I take responsibility seriously, and so people think I'm serious about everything I do or talk about - oh she's no fun, she doesn't joke around, she doesn't laugh much.

Because his eyes hardened and his lips had a frown to it. He replied, "Please get your facts right. She's an exco member okay." And so I realised he thought I was accusing him of being wrong. And I apologised, but I was ignored. I called his name many times, but he refused to make eye contact with me - and this is coming from the person who isn't comfortable with making eye contact with others. I felt still feel really bad. I overheard him talking to the classmate beside him - "she should just keep her mouth shut" - while another classmate was trying to ease of the tension with loud talk.

It's late. I'll continue writing this tomorrow, after I've asked myself even more questions on my social life and how my brain works.
I just wanna go somewhere where I don't need much interaction with people okay. I just want a book, a cup of tea, and perhaps a doggie at my feet. Just wanna feel loved. Off to bed to cry.

Dec. 9th, 2012

the beauty of fiction

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Well I haven't been on in a long time. I'm not exactly sure what my last post was about, but I distinctly remember fretting over my education path. I'm in a Junior College now, and I do so wish I would receive a scholarship if I applied for one. Unfortunately, adults seem to feel that dealing with lil' kids like me is out of the way since I've never received a reply from the person I emailed regarding a veterinary scholarship. Mind you, I followed all email ettiquette, the 'email-writing format', used the politest tone possible and what not. Gah.

Anyhoos, I just finished reading Ms Maggie Stiefvater's 'Lament' - again. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER BOOKS. I love her writing style. I love her romantic, fictional, slightly adventurous stories. I love how I can see it all play out heartbreakingly/beautifully in my mind. I just wanna gush over her books all night and read them over and over again, again. Yeah I have no idea how many times I've re-read her books already. I feel like staying up all night to read it under the blankets and with a torch like Harry does. Only that I'm supposed to do my homework and I wouldn't be. And because I want more people to have these feels I have, Imma write down all her books! :D I got my classmate addicted to the Shiver series~

Lament, Ballad
Shiver, Linger, Forever
Touch Of Power woopsie this one's by Maria V. Snyder

Jun. 24th, 2012

find the time

MYEs

Gahhh mid-years start in two days and I'm not done with my revision... :x The up side is, I have 4 days of true freedom after those 3 days of exams! :D Looking forward to it....

I miss writing narratives... :( :X

Jan. 29th, 2012

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Happy New Year!

This post is very late, but all the same...
Happy new year! May 2012 be a better year for everyone - those studying, may you achieve better grades, those working, may you get a larger bonus :P , those at home, may you live every day happily (:

Jan. 4th, 2012

find the time

The Next Step.

There now lies ahead the decision: junior college or polytechnic?

I want to be a vet. That has been made clear since I was in pri sch. --------oh wait some noisy bitches in the background destroying my train of thoughts----------alright drowned it out with music------- So I'm now doing lots of research on universities (when my next stage is jc/poly), which route can get me there, and the fees. (It's so expensive... D":) Research is no big prob for me because I'm used to it and good at it. If the route I settle on is poly, my next step is to persuade Them. If it's jc, well, everything is easier, but I still have to make the route I choose is best for me.

Kids have such tough lives nowadays huh. Planning for 30 at 16.

The other dream/daydream I've been having is a ... um. How do I put it? Fashion designer who sells the clothes and shoes she designs. (: I want to have a shop that make ppl go-

(sch bell rings for dismissal of students)
Girl A: -talking to tablemate- Hey, whatcha gonna do today?
Girl B: I was planning to shop for a while, then go home and start on homework.
-look at each other- A+B: that shop~!   -hi-five!-
A: I'll go with you, I wanna see what they have on display this week.
B: awesome. That place totally sets the trends. *grins*

But this convo looks so far away...

I'll categorize the shop into shoes, casual, denim, outings, prom :D Then at every 'post' there'll be a stack of paper hanging from the top, and people can tear off a piece and doodle their ideas (clothes/shoes) on it. Then they can write their names on it, then stick their ideas on the walls. Thus my wallpaper will be a mosaic of doodles and ideas. Those will be made into reality with my help (fabric, palette of colours, or they can state it there) then put on display, with the designers' name on a card below the clothes.

This looks so far away too...

Right, back to research (finally I can use the com!)

Actually I'm listening to all the one piece openings. Every one, other than about the sea and pirate's life, talks about acheiving your dreams. They're so heartlifting (:

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